Firstly I would like to apologise for the blunt end to my posts. Secondly I would like to explain why.
I have been through many changes over the past two months, both personally and professionally. I decided to leave my position at CEDR due to financial reasons and the strain of time depravation in other areas of my life. Strangely although the commute wasn’t as horrendous as one would envisage, the lack of time it left me for friends, family and my relationship proved a terrible strain. Also after the company had paid for my travel each month, the take home was around 62p per hour. I could not live like this, constantly relying on others to foot my bills.
Strangely after I decided the position may have been adversely affecting my relationship, that too came to an abrupt end much to my shock and upset. I now know this to have been a good thing, but at the time, my whole world became turned upside down, as I found myself jobless and homeless. I will point out both of these factors were down to my own choosing, I could have stayed in the flat with my ex, he in no way threw me out and we are still on good terms to this day, however it was too upsetting to stay in the place I had tried so hard to make our home, and what I envisaged being our home for some time to come.
So, I was back to square one. At first I thought I could bring forth my Bath placement, but after 24hrs consideration I decided to return home to Hampshire and move in with my best friend of 15 years and her 2 year old daughter… my god daughter. A move I am glad to report I am extremely happy I made, as it is the best living situation I have ever been in. I hadn’t seen my god daughter since she was a little baby, and it is a real treat to be around her watching her grow into this amazing little person. It has also been fantastic building bridges with my best friend, not that they were every really broken, just our life course took us in different directions causing us to lose touch.
She is like my sister, we have been through everything together, and it is lovely to have her back in my life again. We are now all the support one another needs, and are becoming independent women again, without the added complication of men.
With the move, I came to the realisation that I am actually on placement year, which kind of means I need a job. I started to apply for multiple positions. I was successful in an application in the field of event management but decided this wasn’t really for me. I also had successful aplications for telesales positions, but again wanted something a little more challenging.
I then came across a company called A4E ‘action for employment’. A company who take on referrals from the Job Centre, to help challenged people find employment. They are a social enterprise company partly funded by the government, so tie in nicely with my course and my specific interest in the so called ‘underclass’ (note the air quotes) and the problem of unemployment in this country.
My now boss told me I was at least 30 per cent more engaging at interview which was wonderful, as I am always concerned I come across too informal at interview. But a friendly face and someone with gusto is just what this position requires. I am now the Administrator and Customer Service Representative of the Winchester branch, which I can safely say is a job I love and a company I feel I could go much further with. The role of advisor and the outreach team seem like something I could both be good at, and enjoy. Most importantly, I am an Administrator for a company who really makes a difference to real people’s lives… the most important driving factor for me and my future career.
I always thought being an Administrator would be boring. But it is far from it. The diversity of my day to day work schedule really keeps me on my toes. The customer engagement side provides a new challenge every day, and it is all about organisation. My favourite thing, I can proper ‘get my Monica on’. My boss keeps assuring me; the office is my domain now, and I can organise it and arrange it, and decorate it as I like (within obvious reason). Glorious! I feel a lot of scope in the role, and I actually look forward to getting up and going to work in the morning.
In this role I am learning new things, unlike at CEDR where although the London experience was fabulous and metaphorically priceless (obviously not literally or I would still be there) the actual workload was very similar to much I have done before, and not half as challenging. I began to question my ability to be an ‘office worker’, however the size and demographic of an office makes a huge difference, and at A4E I feel among equals, as opposed to among superiors even despite my obvious lack of experience in the field.
So again my apologies. The name of this blog no longer makes much sense, but I suppose after my original bout of London learning, I learnt that London just wasn’t for me!